I Have A Story For Me – Josh Journal

Every once in a while, I have a duty to remind myself why I write. This post is more for you than for me. And the whole of this post is a long-winded way to tell myself that I have a story, and this story deserves to be told.

As a creative, a writer, in particular, it is easy to get lost as regards your purpose, or your directive. They say get a job doing what you love, and you’ll never work a day in your life.
What they forgot to mention is that on some days you will dislike, dare I say, hate, doing the very thing you could have sworn you would gladly do for free for the rest of your life.

I have opened my notepad and just hated the fact that I am staring at an empty page. The most annoying part is that I always have something to write. I never have writer’s block. Yet, at that moment, I want to do anything but write.

I like to believe that I am awesomely good at everything I do. Scratch that. I am great at everything I do. Time and again, I have been offered payment for some of my abilities. In some instances, I even get offered a career path.

One thing my writing experience has taught me though is that some things are best left as hobbies or in an advisory capacity. I don’t have to make a career or an earning out of all.
You might be of an opposite view to that, and I applaud your ability to function like that.

For me, all I want to do is to tell stories. As a writer, some days, I wake up and I want to write a story that the whole world must read. Other days I want to write stories that are for my eyes only.
Sometimes I want to write about those I love the most, other times I want to write about those I have come to hate.

On rare occasions, I feel the need to write about happy memories and the people that created them with me. On even rarer occasions, I want to write about moments that left me hurt, heartbroken, and the culprits.
Whatever the moment or the feeling, all I want to do is write.

On my phone, on the computer, on a book, on a sheet of paper, I want to entertain, educate, and elevate the mind. I consider myself a teacher, a preacher, and an entertainer.
I walk the line between a creator and a spectator. A participant, a character, the mood, the theme, the setting, the narrator, an analyst, and the audience.

The story I want to write is as much for me as it is for you. Before you get to read it, I read it first. And before you were entertained, I was entertained.
This is for those of us who despite how we feel find it impossible to stop writing. The story lives in us. We live to tell our stories.

Wilson Joshua is a Social Media/Community Manager, Content Creator, and Creative Writer.
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