I’d be cussing and swearing if I were that kind of man, but that isn’t a vocabulary I use.
Seriously. Stop leaving your children with idiots.
That might be the key to your peace of mind in the future.
I have heard since I was young that curiosity killed the cat. I took this in; line, hook, and sinker. That was until I myself got curious.
Did curiosity really kill the cat or are did they tell us this to kill our inquisitive nature?
Feeling remorseful or regret is not a sign of weakness. It is simply being human. Know that others have been where you are and still gone on to do better.